New Starts and Barren Hearts

Due to some personal issues last week, I will be writing about week 2 this week and will pick back up with week 3 next week.

'I've got your back.' I have said this many times to my friends when they were faced with a situation in which I thought if they couldn't handle it themselves I would step in and give them the extra support. This phrase kept popping in my head all week during this study. God seemed to be reminding me that He has my back no matter the situation and that He will always keep me safe. The Israelites seemed to have forgotten this small detail while out in the wilderness. Just as I forget sometimes all I have to do is call out and God will be there. Most times I don't even have to call out, He knows what I need at the exact moment.

There are times when I stand back in awe of God's timing and this past week was one of them. I watched the video that goes along with this study on Saturday morning. I sat stunned on my bed as I watched the video. It seemed to be designed just for me.

As many of you know I had a family death last week. There were moments in which I didn't know where I would draw my next breath. As soon as I heard the news, a story that Beth told on the video came to me. She told a story where one of her good friends lost their child. Beth said the mother had this unexplainable grace about her and how strong she was. At the funeral, Beth was a complete mess and couldn't get a hold of herself. The mother had to come over and tell her to get it together. She was amazed by her strength and told God she didn't see how she was such as mess and the mother was holding it together. God reminded her that He gives His grace out according to individual need. The mother was handling this tragedy with God's grace, not her own. He had her back.

I have had to pray a lot this past week for God's grace and for His strength. I knew I couldn't handle any of this alone and quite frankly, didn't want to. This was in His plan all along and even though I will never understand His timing, I have to accept it. Beth made a point in her video that God is expecting our unexpected. He knew I would fall back on Him this week and that He would have to carry me. He has always got me.