After watching the video that goes along with this study, I decided that I would talk about what was discuss there.
Normally, Beth does a recap of the week and focuses on one subject and digs deeper. This week however, she picked up where day 5 ended. We went over chapters 32-34, but one specific chapter caught my eye. It was chapter 33 and more specifically, verses 12-23.
If I have ever felt like someone in the bible, it was then. Moses was having, what I call, a freak out moment. He was finally just letting all his emotions out. He wanted to know what God had in store for them the rest of the way and if God was going to be there. Now, Moses knew God said he was there for him but he just wasn't getting it. Moses needed God in the flesh with him so he would feel better and feel more in control.
Oh how there are days that I wish God would swoop down and become human so he can hold my hand and tell me all the things he has in store for me. Beth says that is our "with" need; we want God's presence. I know I'm not the only one that would find life so much easier if God would just make himself known in the flesh. No matter how much I pray, I want Him there holding my hand every time I go into the doctor's office to get an update on the baby. Whispering in my ear that He has everything under control. I know this is when my faith gets tested. Just as Moses, I know God has great plans for me and I wish He would share those plans with me, but I have to have faith that He knows what he is doing and that even though he isn't there in the flesh, He is still holding my hand.
I'm not sure how people without faith get through things. I'm not sure how I would have gotten through the past couple of weeks without Him assuring me everything will be fine. I'm not sure how I would get through this pregnancy without Him; let alone raising a child. My mom says she always prays for my brother and me, and I never could get why she would pray for us when it was just an ordinary day. Well, even though my child isn't here yet, I am constantly praying for God to watch over it and keep it safe. It gives me reassurance that even though God can't show himself, He is still there.
That is what we always need to remember. He wouldn't send us out into the desert with no food and no idea what our next move will be if He didn't have everything under control and our best interest at heart. We have to trust that He will guide us if we will only pick up and follow.
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Kacie, thank you for being so honest and transparent. There are so many times when I wish God was visibly here with me too reassuring me and letting me know that He is in control. Its nice to hear someone else say it. We are vulnerable and needy people. We want to know that our futures are secure and we want to be in control of them. Its hard to let go and rest in our faith that God has it all under control. Its not our job to plan the future. God had that decided long ago.
ReplyDeletePraying for your child is the best thing in the world you can do. I read another blog by a mom (I don't know if you remember Coach K?). Anyway, she struggled with infertility for a long time. And then one day she was blessed with an adoption and a pregnancy almost at the same time! She is now the proud mother of two. Her grandmother prayed for her children for years and years way before they were born. Her grandmother had a very strong faith that God was going to take care of her and bless her with children one day..and she knew how important it was for her to pray for them as much as she could.
I don't have kids yet (heck, I'm not even married!) but I know that it is important for me to start praying for them now. Because although I may not have a clue what the future holds...God has it all planned and under control. And I just have to keep faith in that.
Some things you just don't understand until you are traveling through it. I just wish that at your age, I had been involved in Bible Study with other women for the support and encouragement we can give each other. It's never to early to start praying for those precious children! We may not know what the future holds but...we can rest in knowing WHO holds our future. God is faithful!
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